August 30

Last night was one of the worst since diagnosis. But today has been much better. The support that I’ve received over the last few months has been made even clearer in the actions of others today. Kr- texted to check I was ok after last night. K. also contacted me to check we were mates still after our falling out yesterday. And S. made in clear he was worried about me. And today’s BBQ was great. Awful weather but great friends. Thank you to all of them. A., S., S., P., N., B., T., T., J., and R.! Continue reading August 30

August 29 – feast of the Beheading of St John Baptist

Well I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I was out with a new mate. One that I thought might lead to something more. One problem : he’s negative. In the middle of a night out I ended up telling him about my status. K-‘s been relatively okay about this. But it highlights to me the problem in being interested in men that aren’t known to be positive. When is the time to tell them? How can the virus be passed on? Is kissing wrong? Should I resign myself to being single for ever? Perhaps that would be simpler. … Continue reading August 29 – feast of the Beheading of St John Baptist

August 28

It’s some time since I have posted on here. But the events of last night really do need recorded. Five Hours of a Meeting I was at a meeting last night which lasted five hours – but it was reasonably productive depsite starting to cover ground that is not this year’s committee’s responsibility. Then two of us decided that it would be a good idea to head for a pint. Everything goes awry OK, so I shouldn’t be drinking alcohol whilst taking Citalopram, but I was planning only to have one pint. I say planning, because as with all best … Continue reading August 28

July 29

One new positive friend… It’s a funny world. In one week I have discovered more friends that are positive. But also heard bad news about one friend. Finding out that friends I’ve had for months are in fact positive and have been for as long as I have known them is an interesting experience. On a certain dating site I have a profile that makes it clear that I am HIV positive. I used to have a profile that didn’t, and it was through that profile I met the friend that told me he was positive last night. He asked … Continue reading July 29

June 21

It’s June 21st the longest day of the year, so there is less time to cry when going to sleep tonight. Strange how that is what comes to mind. But, of course, tonight is not that sort of time for going to bed. Tonight is another fundraising night and will see me out til the early hours rattling a bucked for the local Pride festival. It’s midsummer and it’s pouring with rain here. So not the best day to go out for a nice drive or anything – and even when I get home I’ll not want to do any … Continue reading June 21

Day 73

Drugs The drug régime is taking its toll on me. Remembering to take the drugs is becoming more difficult as time goes on. I suspect that this is because I am feeling better and better—making me feel less and less like I need to take the drugs. However, I have not missed yet. Food Today has been very easy in the food department and tomorrow will be so again. I am staying with my parents and enjoying homecooked food once again. There really is nothing like food prepared by your mother. But tomorrow it will be back to having to … Continue reading Day 73